My fellow Americans, ask not what your country can do for you, ask what you can do for your country.

-  John F. Kennedy

 

 

We are Tim and Jessie Krabiel from Kansas City, Missouri.  We have two daughters.  Lydia is seven and attends public school here in Belton, Missouri and Andi is two; schooling me at the moment in parenting and patience.  We love our small town community and look forward to launching a new South Campus to our home church, Turning Point Church in Kansas City, Missouri.  We have served in ministry at TPC for 10 years this Easter.  We are excited to share with you about Kingdom Initiative.   This event began stirring in my heart about three years ago.  I, Jessie felt a strong passion for praying over our communities, schools, public places, government, armed forces, first responders and the list goes on.  There is so much need in the world we live and I know of a Hope like none other we needed to cling to, instead of feeling hopeless, powerless and defeated.  As I began to seek God about what this event would look like, I was overcome with fear and feelings of being incapable of organizing such a large scale event, definitely unqualified and unworthy. Who am I to rally something like this? I’m a mess.  I’m just a mom.  I’m just trying to keep things together on the home front.  The months would pass and I would avoid the fact that all I need to do is trust God and just take it one step at a time.  This event had nothing to do with me, it had everything to do with Him.  From time to time I would approach a trusted loved one, sharing what God had put on my heart.  This, leading them to be encouraging, urging me to move forward.  When on the inside I was thinking, “well, if you think it’s so awesome, YOU should totally do and I’ll help!”  I was running from this event, avoiding it like a plague.  I was fighting it because this process of organizing, talking aloud to people, contacting strangers, confrontation, simply putting thoughts on paper, this goes against any kind of comfortable for me.  I would constantly try to “put it off” on someone else.  Then IT happened, after fighting God on this for countless months, I knew it was time for me to move on this.  Not because I was “ready”, but because God was ready to make it happen and I was finally ready to trust.  Fall of 2014, I was driving in my car headed who knows where, but right before I went to shut my car off I heard a lyric from the radio “Take our nation back”.  Of course it caught my attention and I was quick to jot that down so I wouldn’t forget to search for that song on a later date.  Days went by, actually weeks, when I finally sat down and googled the lyric I made note of.  I found it, it was “Build Your Kingdom Here”, by Rend Collective.  I was blown away by the lyrics.  I could have never expressed the mission of this Initiative better, than the words of this song. As I listened I knew this was the time to start putting forth the effort to make this event a success.  Followed by the perfectness of the song, really helping the vision come together and setting the foundation of the event; we (our church) began a small group study, reading the book by Craig Groeschel, Chazown.  Urging me to move forward to making this God inspired dream, a reality.  I finally felt free to talk about it, almost as though I was giving myself permission to do something that I was scared to death of doing.  I had been trying to convince others these last few years that I wasn’t “crazy”, that God was actually really telling me to do this, when all along, I think I was trying to convince myself.  Time after time it would be confirmed this was the time to lift our nation up in prayer; to come together as believers, being purposeful about lifting our nation up in prayer.  No longer feeling hopeless, because we have the Creator of the universe to cry out to. 

At our annual staff retreat this year when I shared with the staff about the status of the event, I broke down and just said “I seriously don’t want to do this”.  I was so overcome with the unknown and the possibilities of the event going big, I just wanted to forget it and let God move this vision on to someone else.  I was really fighting God on this again, thinking, why in this world would He be asking me to do this.  God wasn’t answering me on this, so I asked my husband, he said, because He knew you would.  From that moment on, there was no going back, God was counting on me, He is counting on all of us.  To take a stand, to come together as a Christian nation , to win this nation back.

I’ve had two conversations, very clear conversations with God through this journey, one being about six weeks before filming the promo video.  We were driving to church on a Wednesday night and unknowing to anyone else in our car.  I was telling God about how I felt and was sharing with Him, that this task was just too hard, so I TOLD God, Listen, if no one asks me about Kingdom Initiative tonight, I’m not doing it.  Ok, you have to understand, only 4 people even knew about it that was going to be at church that Wednesday night and I was working in the nursery and I never really talked about the event openly in person, only through email.  So I was pretty much mocking God, thinking, whew… I’m free from this!  Following the service, while finishing up in the nursery a very normal friendly hello through the nursery door was heard, I simply replied hey (forgetting about my conversation with God an hour before), which was followed by a “hey weren’t you suppose to be sending something on Kingdom Initiative?”.  I wish I could have seen my face.  Of course our Lead Pastor had no idea at that time what I was really thinking in my head or could have understood the crazy smile I know I gave him, but I actually excitedly said, “yes, yes you should have!”  I later shared with my pastor and his wife about my conversation with God on my way to church that night, thinking I was in the clear, when I was reminded that GOD IS ALWAYS LISTENING!! Yet again another reason to pray, God is always listening.  I also continue to learn that God is also with me.  I’m sure you’re thinking, how many times are you going to question God on this! I know right? I’m very stubborn.

Lastly I have to share my latest conversation with God.  After completing the promo video, I was so excited to see how our videographer was going to bring this event to life.  I was constantly praying for Matt and his team, I was praying that the message and purpose would be clear and honestly just praying for a miracle, because again, I’m not an actress and I knew that what I had envisioned and expressed to others for the last three years, is now in someone else’s hands.  So of course I prayed for Matt and just had to trust.  When we received the promo video I was so excited to view it, but it was almost hard to push play, because, this was it, this was what was going to ignite our nation to come to action for our God.  As I watched I was almost in disbelief that I loved it, I mean who likes themselves on camera.  It’s scary being vulnerable and to do something outside of your comfort level.  I myself am a perfectionist and I’d rather not do something at all, if it’s not going to be great, or the best or perfect.  But who’s the judge of that?  As I was driving down the road, leaving the church this time, I was talking to God and wondering what will everyone else think of this video? Not expecting a response, more like expecting this is how I’d feel for months to come…. God said to me, it doesn’t matter Jessie, you’re doing it for me. 

I’ve realized through this, I may actually be crazy, but I’m ok with it.  At least I’m crazy for our Creator and obedient to his purpose for my life. 

Let's take this nation back. Together we can.